life to live

He closed his eyes for a moment to be working after a few last minute struggle mightily when his cell phone suddenly rang. He looked again at the orange wall in front of him. He thought back upset because now is past midnight. In raihnya phones that had been moaning and the phone was rude opening flap. Rang out across it so hard lizard lurking prey will fall made. It sucks thought Kinar. Yeah but what's more, he knows, sooner or later it is bound to happen, already apparent clumsiness of love these days. Her best friend, it often looks moody and sensitive. But he was sorry, why timing is so not right, as now, when he's really needs time to rest.
            "Hello! Kinar! Hear it true? "Love said with disgust. Love Actually pronounce sentence sounded a bit less clear in the ears Kinar.
            "Yes yes! Hear why! Anggep just wrote that just happened dimimpimu. Try it you know and see what time it is. Oh or your man again dream time huh? "Said Kinar origin.
            "Ouch Kinar, I seriously, is already very serious. I do not want to break up with him! "Love the speech is not clear due to the frequency of her crying more often.
            "How about tomorrow diomongin wrote. I'm really sleepy! Good-bye! "Kinar finally disconnect and turn off his cell phone. It seems cruel, but there is no other option or tomorrow morning he went to college with a look on his face like a child's sleep-deprived chickens.
Kinar start a struggle from the beginning. A few minutes later he finally fell asleep after installing an alarm that does not wake up late the next morning.
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Kinar woke up the next morning. Kinar find his alarm clock fall. Some couplers roam the floor. Jarumnyapun stuck between the cover glass clock, after clearing fractions hour, he then descended the stairs with footsteps shuffling lazy, want to wash my face for a while before breakfast, but attacks savory aroma that wafted suddenly from the kitchen of her really tempting and Kinar nevertheless managed to make to the bathroom. In the end Kinar instead turned toward the kitchen.
Kinar eyes lit up when I saw a stack of pancakes brown sauce on the table as if he were dancing around him. It seems very tasty and unknowingly now Kinar was holding one of these delicious snack pile. He chewed pancake, almost looks like a tramp who had never come face to face with food for days, hungrily once.
Instead of stopping chewing, Kinar even pulled up a chair beside him and sit there. Looks like she really enjoyed her time with pancake-pancake that. Arriving at the fourth lahapan Kinar realize until he was reminded goal put the alarm last night, she had a lecture this morning, he is also aware of what the ultimate goal a few minutes ago. Kinar went into the family room for the kitchen, her daddy did not put up a wall clock. Kinar had wondered why the house was so quiet this morning. Unlike the morning usually. Given the number of siblings a bejibun Kinar.
 Kinar surprise vanished when he caught the shortest clock already pointed to the empty area between the numbers seven and eight. That sign is now half past eight when Kinar must attend class at eight o'clock while the distance between the home and the campus is also pretty far. It should be about 30 minutes, and even then if the road smoothly and not jammed. If not for Mr. Bagas, lecturers who will teach the course this morning, maybe he would not nervous now. Kinar fully understand, sir Bagas will not accept any reason for the delay and if Kinar students to be absent from his courses, Mr. Bagas not be reluctant to tell his courses Kinar repeat next year. It would be fatal if it were so. He did not want to burden his family. Papa mama still have to bear the cost of school four other siblings. Luckily mama Kinar has a catering business which today can be said on the rise. Should, for children age Kinar, he should be able to bear alone to simply buy the least fuel car. But nothing, to buy potato crispy on the campus café alone, Kinar still Nodong to her daddy.
Without thinking, Kinar hurried back to his room. No wonder the house deserted. Definitely brother and her parents now sit facing each other's work. Kinar so annoyed, why did no one wake him, but a few seconds later, he realized, at this moment she was 20 years old. He did not deserve it feels like it's thinking. It's embarrassing.
About five minutes later, Kinar was ready complete with all sorts of equipment college today and headed to his car that had been prepared mang Dada, daddy driver since the early morning. Kinar immediately start the engine after the rear of his car and his car was within about one meter outside the fence, Kinar down again. With all the movement as quickly as possible and pull him close and lock the padlock fence. Actually this is the task of Bi Triem, but this time he must be willing berepot trouble because Bi Triem was taking time off to visit his relatives who had a celebration in his village in Sleman.
"Phew, thank God again deserted streets. Thanks God! "Said Kinar relief.
Kinar suddenly heard a very loud from a distance of approximately 10 meters in front. Not long from the sound of it, we were about six seconds later Kinar saw the car in front of him stopped suddenly and as the vehicle speed is high initially Kinar, not able to respond quickly even though the brake pedal is Kinar backwards, it still ended up crashing his car and drove front of the car, broken glass scattered Kinar car and shortly after Kinar feel a very strong jolt from behind her. Everything was dark. Although Kinar could still hear the sound through the ear bustle but she does not have the power to open the eyes. Until he was not aware at all.
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Tonight Kinar feel very fresh. Feeling there was something new in his life, just like the land of rain soaked after a long dry season. He could hear his mother a faint sound was talking to her father. From the tone of his voice, it seems, mama bear grief Kinar was extremely remarkable. Kinar never heard sepedih tone from the lips of his mother. Kinar could feel a similar sense of the tone of the words of her father. But life is not disturbed Kinar, happy soul who remain happy. Kinar hard to describe what was happening to him. What was he feeling, he knows now, he wants to share that feeling with his parents who were bothered.
 Just Kinar want to open his mouth to speak to his parents, suddenly Kinar seen a blinding white light. Kinar to have to squint to see the light of what it is and who brought light. Looks female figure standing, smiling at her Kinar reached as if to pick up the baby, a few seconds later Kinar recognize the figure, it is Kinar grandmother, maternal grandmother mama Kinar, Kinar thought for a moment, instead of Kinar grandmother has long passed away. But Kinar ignored. In his lifetime, Kinar very close to her grandmother's, Kinar really miss him. Happiness like this is not going Kinar waste. Kinar over to her grandmother and when Kinar would welcome a helping hand she had, Kinar heard the sound of crying mama and daddy. Although her father crying so softly in the ear Kinar, but Kinar could hear clearly the crying. Unlike her father, Kinar mama crying so hysterically. Kinar the dizziness caused by thinking too hard what was going on. Plus commanding voice shouted from another source, not papa or mama and a strange sound like a diesel engine that was going on. Roaring. Kinar finally decided to pull the hand back and undo his grandmother welcomed helping hand.
Kinar heard his name mentioned on the sidelines crying. The closer and closer. The sound it makes Kinar really want to open my eyes and all of a sudden, whether it comes from, as Kinar got a very powerful force for keiginannya paid it. With difficulty he caused all the nerves around the eyelids in order to work. But it's very hard, she needs more power again. The more often his name is called, Kinar getting stronger, and the last time, he heard confession, this time Kinar feel like hempaskan of peak pegunugan heading to the abyss and finally, Kinar even able to move the muscles in his fingers, Kinar could feel his fingers moving slowly. Followed by his muscles had started to think. Now the total Kinar can already start looking around. His mother, who was sitting next to her looking very wretched, red eyes and a pale face. Kinar mama do not usually like this. Next to his mama, papa Kinar there also looks the same pathetic with his mama. But, where the grandmother Kinar. Kinar looked around once again more carefully. But Kinar not find her grandmother there. Kinar tears profusely when he realized what had happened. Apparently, his grandmother only appears in a mirage manipulation. But Kinar really relieved now. At least, he was able to come back to see mama and daddy smile.
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One month passed after the tragic events that occurred. Kinar back to the original routine. Although it can not be denied. There's something very different this time. Kinar must be willing to lose both legs. Kinar must give up his life depended on a wheelchair who faithfully accompanied him wherever he goes. Kinar must be willing to let the shoe-boots bear longed to be used by the employer. Kinar did lose his legs. However, now Kinar have more people who love the Kinar. Kinar feel has more than two legs. With the support of the people around him-Kinar able to stand back. Without legs though.
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Those days are now filled with activities Kinar more meaningful. Kinar often invited to the seminar events. Kinar frequent speaker in seminars. Apparently, it was a tragic accident brings wisdom for Kinar. Kinar who used to waste time is now beginning to realize how much berhaganya time. The accident that her parents took her to the world a more vibrant.
Now five months after the accident occurred. Kinar managed to publish a book. Where in the fabled book about his life. Life after an accident forced his legs cut off. Kinar book became a best seller and book a speaker Kinar intensity increased sharply. This time not only on the island of Java. But also many other islands. Even on the island of Sabang. Terujung island country. Of activities that, Kinar met a handsome man who bravely ask Kinar be his best man. Kinar life really has changed in just a period of about six months. Well, the Lord Almighty Everything. He can do anything arbitrarily Him. Of course not separated from the goodness and benefits for his servants.